I’m sorry

By Carol / April 19, 2022 /

This is now I feel today.

I’m sorry

What does the future look like? For my granddaughters, my step grandsons, the children in pre-schools, the young adults in college?

North Korea launches another missile. Is the target South Korea? The United States? Is it only time?

Russia batters Ukraine. Kills civilians. Intentionally. Targets hospitals. Ukraine vows to fight to the end.

Police kill another black man. Another black child. Another black woman. At a traffic stop. In their front yard. In their own homes. Unarmed. Unresisting. Guilty? Not guilty? 

Does it matter?

Can the future be better? Here? Overseas? Anywhere? Ever? I wish I could say yes. But I can’t.

So I’m sorry. For my grandchildren. For all the grandchildren. For the 4-year-old kids I read with each week. For the college students.

I want to make it better, the future. But I can’t make it so.

And I’m sorry.

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  1. Sharon Lippincott on April 19, 2022 at 11:53 am

    OMG YES! I feel this every waking minute! Thank you for making these thoughts visible to the world.

    • Carol on April 19, 2022 at 1:59 pm

      I do my best to stay positive, Sharon, and generally I don’t write when I can’t. But voicing it may get it out and give me space to get back on track.

  2. Elfrieda Neufeld Schroeder on April 19, 2022 at 12:07 pm

    I too, am sorry for the condition in which this world finds itself! I guess all we can do is just our small part to make it better, like caring for the 4year-olds and our grandchildren, and the hungry birds at our feeder, and trying to live like Jesus. One step at a time, one day at a time!

    • Carol on April 19, 2022 at 2:02 pm

      You’re right, Elfrieda. We can each do something. We have to hope that the cumulative effect of our individual actions moves us collectively in some better direction. As soon as I posted this morning, I began to think this way, too. Thanks for the good reminder.

  3. Linda Hoye on April 19, 2022 at 10:31 pm

    Yes, oh yes. I feel this keenly and share your sorrow. I can’t imagine the world my grandchildren will inherit.

    • Carol on April 21, 2022 at 7:10 am

      Thanks for reading, Linda. Visioning a positive future is tough right now. I’m working to develop a new way of thinking about it.

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